Onions play game in studio often.
And strange illusion happen like this
To be or not to be, that is the question.
See you next friday..
I am writing text a lot recently. It is not only writing for Blog but also for the story.
Today,I write about ”the story”.
It is very important for me that I write the story by my own ideas in my life. I am writing something every day really like ill.
And what is “the story” for me?
Making story is that I create the new world that can have me. And I explain that these new world is very fragile bubble. And one of the bubbles may becomes a real universe. I am thinking like this.
I wrote three story today. One is for my very very tiny game. One is for job which I may earn some money. One is very strange story plot like CHULIP ,like moon which is for talking to my friend of far away land.
I wish that these bubbles become real small galaxy someday.
The word is very important element for the space which is final frontier in my heart. I can not explore without words.
You may often think video game don’t need the story.
And someone says “Chess dose not have story” “Puzzle game dose not have story”
but I don’t like making video game without story.
My body and soul says “Think Think Think,you can find out good solution between game and story”
Even though it may be very very fragile bubble.
“Hey! My tiny onion! Do you understand?”
(hi guys,I am still trying to write about my daily story in english:-)
Can I write the new story of …?
I say I am professional game designer,but I feel I suspect my self often.
I had a strong frustration recently.
Because I could not get new inspiration for adventure game.
I was thinking next piece ,something new ideas of like moon or like Chulip past few months.
But I was not able to get something new idea.
Starbucks coffee dose not help me at all.
I was thinking in starbucks of shinjuku3choume. and I was thinking in my house a lot.
It was so difficult for me.
My brain melt down quickly.And,I slept automatically like death.
And I did not notice my head became like volcanos.
My Head exploded suddenly!
After explosion of my head
I thought I need help of my friends for making my head quiet.
I e-mailed to fellows and We had a meeting.
It was very long time.
First of all we were discussing about something new concept.
We had a various theme .
But,one guy said to me “I want you to talk about what you like to do now.”
“now? in real life?”
And I was talking about my ambition on the road in real life. And I started to talk about trauma of the past unconsciously.
And I vomited all what I was feeling.
For example,I was talking about dissatisfaction of Chulip, dissatisfaction moon,my childhood strange story,the story of communication with animals ,trauma of sex, major incident of adult era, and the strange peoples I have met in my life.
And strangely enough, I got one inspiration from this discussing.
“I should start to write about it. Even though I do not know it can become videogame or not.”
And I can continue to think again.
Do you know japan climate is very strange recently?
How is climate in your land?
Recently small earthquake happen a lot. And temperature change a lot in japan.
And some typhoon came a lot after autumn.
World people don’t notice Japanese indie game scene like they don’t notice Japanese climate change now.
I want to tell you like this.Can you believe?
“Something happened at November 2013 for japanese indie game scene”
Japanese Indies started to exhibit a lot of game to audience recently.
New Indie game festival of Japan started!?
There were two events in this month.
One is Tokyo Location Test game show in akihabara, and other one is Digital Game Expo in kamata.
Comic market is famous otaku festival of japan not only video game but also they show a lot of comic and cosplay.
Usually indies go to show their video games in comic market.
But new place appeared called Digital Game Expo.
Digital Game EXPO is the first rare event of exhibiting original video games without comic market.
This is special indie game developer’s event for all game fun.
I felt something that new phenomenon started with very clear philosophy for future.
“Make game freely”
“Exhibit Game freely”
“You are freedom”
Even though I am Japanese, but It was not easy for me to find out Japanese indie game usually.
But I found a lot in this November.I must say this is miracle month.
And I noticed Japanese Indie Game Typhoon will be coming very soon to the world.
I hope I can join it in near future.I hope I can.
by the way I took some photos of Japanese indie game in this month
You can watch this Gallery, if you like.
I participated in GameMarket 2013 winter.
And I made and show this.
New Chess “Onions and shadows”
I am very interested in the face of people’s happiness and sadness while they are playing.
They show many kind of face.
“Sense of accomplishment”,”Feeling that want to win”,”Face of suspicion”,”Face of trust”,”Mind that I’ll want to attack”,”conservative mind”
I am very glad when I can discover people’s emotion.
While I am playing board game with my friend.
I am feeling like this.
“Oh? really? you react like this as a one of human?”
By the way I discover impressive human’s face at the table of our place in Game Market also.
That is difference between adults and children.They show me each different face while they play my game.
Adults are very careful playing for each move with serious face. They are thinking next next next next step for not lose pawn. And they want to play without fails. They need plenty of time to think at their turn.
“This is game. Please play easily”
I was talking to them without voice.
But,Children are playing the game more easily with face of curiosity. They move a pawn very quickly without deep thought. They are not bothering from anything and not worried about anything. They experience a lot of win and lose. They challenge again and again.
“Please think a little before you move. please”
I was talking to them without voice.
This Is really the difference between adult and child ?
It may be the difference between the way of life?
Which temper is good ?
“the temper of who want to play without fails” or ”the temper of who want to play with impulse” ?
While I am watching their playing. I was questioning to my self unconsciously,
“Which temper am I living with?”
Every wednesday is the time for exhibition of the pixels.
We love Pixels!
Do you like today’s picture?
I had a meeting with mr.John szczepaniak the last friday.
I invited him to my home.
And we ate pizza and drunk some beer.
He is the man who try to make a book of japanese video game.
He came here at the day when new typhoon was coming to tokyo and it was incredibly windy and rainy.
I have to call him “the man of typhoon”
I wanted to know what he is. And I was interested in what he was going to ask me.
After all, He asked me about my past story a lot, moon,rule of rose,chulip, etc.
And I answered good and bad story both a lot.His question was very maniac.
“Did I talk about past too much?”
I am suspecting my self often like this when I talk to people.
But maybe, it was necessary for me to talk about past to somebody.
So it was ok.
By the way, while he is interviewing with me, I was thinking different things.
It is about Kick starter of him. He is making book with the money from crowd funding called kick starter. I think he is brave man. His doing is like a real adventure game.
This man was traveling over the sea from far away land, and he is meeting a lot of japanese developer.And he is trying to make interesting book.
I felt very much his ambition of his life and his love for video game.
Why is he coming? Why is he interested in me? why? why?
Maybe, this theme “The untold history of japanese game developers” must be very important for him.
And I think he can not stop his impulse of creating this book.
After he went back, I was thinking about my self and kick starter in rain.
My impulse will be coming to my heart or not?
I do not know yet.
We had a stage for IndieGame at last sunday.
Some Indie game developer was talking in front of public at Odaiba of Tokyo.
We discussed a lot.
There was a very impressive question.
“While you are developing video game,
When do you feel good?”
It was really interesting question.
When is the best moment of my making video game?
The moment of that I started project ?
The moment of that I completed project?
While our friend are discussing ,I remembered what I felt long long time ago.
When I was 13 years old.I started to make game.
I remember the first experience of my touching 8bit computer.After I was reading short program list of magazine.I wanted to try to use computer at consumer electric shop.
And I started type alphabet without knowing what it is.
10 PRINT “I LOVE YOU”;
20 GOTO 10
Then ,TV Screen became like this
I was so surprised.
“Alhabet is moving by my typing alphabet !?”
I can not forget this feeling.I have started to learn programing language called BASIC
And My first game programming is Snake.
Even though it was not my own idea.but I learned a lot from this snake.
And after that,I made some original small game.
I remember game screen visuals like this.
these were very low quality games.but I felt something good.it was kind of ecstasy.
“Something is moving in the screen by my thought”
“New World appear in TV suddenly like GOD made the world.”
Maybe it was miracle and magical moment.
After all,what is my answer ?
When is the best moment of my making videogame?
Best of my happy time ?
It is happy for me to find out that new strange creatures born in TV screen by my own way.
This is my answer. How is yours?