I had a meeting with mr.John szczepaniak the last friday.

I invited him to my home.
And we ate pizza and drunk some beer.

 

He is the man who try to make a book of japanese video game.

The Untold History of Japanese Game Developer.

He came here at the day when new typhoon was coming to tokyo and it  was incredibly windy and rainy.
I have to call him “the man of typhoon” 🙂

I wanted to know what he is. And I was interested in what he was going to ask me.
After all, He asked me about my past story a lot, moon,rule of rose,chulip, etc.
And I answered good and bad story both a lot.His question was very maniac.

“Did I talk about past too much?”
I am suspecting my self often like this when I talk to people.
But maybe, it was necessary for me to talk about past to somebody.
So it was ok.

 

By the way, while he is interviewing with me, I was thinking different things.
It is about Kick starter of him. He is making book with the money from crowd funding called kick starter. I think he is brave man. His doing is like a real adventure game.

This man was traveling over the sea from far away land, and he is meeting a lot of japanese developer.And he is trying to make interesting book.
I felt very much his ambition of his life and his love for video game.
Why is he coming? Why is he interested in me? why? why?
Maybe, this theme “The untold history of japanese game developers”  must be very important for him.
And I think he can not stop his impulse of creating  this book.

After he went back, I was thinking about my self and kick starter in rain.

Honestly I say “I am very afraid of kick starter and people’s judgement.”
But if I can get strong impulse from my heart, Can I stand in front of audience like him?

My impulse will be coming to my heart or not?
I do not know yet.

Yoshiro kimura
october/29/2013

We had a stage for IndieGame at last sunday.
Some Indie game developer was talking in front of public at Odaiba of Tokyo.
We discussed a lot.

There was a very impressive question.
“While you are developing video game,
  When do you feel good?”

It was really interesting question.
When is the best moment of my making video game?

The moment of that I started project ?
The moment of that I completed project?

While our friend are discussing ,I remembered what I felt long long time ago.
When I was 13 years old.I started to make game.
I remember the first experience of my touching 8bit computer.After I was reading short program list of magazine.I wanted to try to use computer at consumer electric shop.
And I started type alphabet without knowing what it is.

10 PRINT “I LOVE YOU”;
20 GOTO 10

RUN

 

Then ,TV Screen became like this 🙂
I was so surprised.
“Alhabet is moving by my typing alphabet !?”

I can not forget this feeling.I have started to learn programing language called BASIC

And My first game programming is Snake.

After a week,I made one small game called  “Walking Walking Game”.

Even though it was not my own idea.but I learned a lot from this snake.

And after that,I made some original small game.
I remember game screen visuals like this.

these were very  low quality games.but I felt something good.it was kind of ecstasy.

“Something is moving in the screen by my thought”
“New World appear in TV suddenly like GOD made the world.”

Maybe it was miracle and magical moment.

After all,what is my answer ?

When is the best moment of my making videogame?
Best of my happy time ?

It is happy for me to find out that new strange creatures born in  TV screen by my own way.
This is my answer. How is yours?

Yoshiro Kimura
october/22/2013

“What is worst Jamming of making videogame?”

I was discussing about it with my friend,while we are drinking beer.

And I was thinking like this…

 

Is it disease?

 

 

Is it whisky?

 

 

Is it money?

 

Actually worst Jamming is in my mind.

 

“Lazy mind”

 

I become incredibly lazy man often like this 🙁
This man is living in my mind.
And He often appear and says “you don’t need  to work hard ! ”

This is worst jamming for my making game.

 

Yoshiro Kimura

october/14/2013

Even though I don’t like the word “if”, 

But I often ask to my self “if”.

While I am walking around street  of shinjuku 3-choume without drinking beer.

I was thinking about my stupidity.

“If I am wiser,I will have better life?”
What a ridiculous question to myself !!

“If my past work succeeded more ,Am I working for making game much better now?”
It is stupid question. but I can not stop to think about it.

And also I continue to ask to my self automatically,
“If I am more famous ,If I am much wiser, I use kickstarter?”
“If my past work sold well,then I could have work as a producer in big famous publisher ?”
These thought is incredibly stupid and ridiculous.

Unfortunately my work was not sold well.
I must admit that I was bad producer for the company.
It is very true:-(

but,My onion ask to me  like this also.
“Unfortunately?  Really?”

I remember what I was.

I was like a knight in armor called producer.
I was like a knight in armor called officer of company.

And that armor was heavy ,hard ,very serious, and it was cursed by the spell called “arrogance”.

Fortunately,I am able to take off this armor recently.

I became humble naked man of Shinjuku.

Fortunately,I can think my future and new game ideas.
And fortunately I am able to be walking around street of shinjuku-3chome without drinking beer.

Yoshiro Kimura

october/7/2013

My tiny onion says to me,

“This is you when you are 70 years old.”

 

Even though my onion says very miserable anticipation of my future,
I love my tiny one 🙂

************
By the way My aim is still same as before.
“I want to entertain people by my own Idea. “

It is same as before surely.But my thought is changed a little.

I should not mind about big budget and I do not want to think about proper management for big team too much.
I wanted to escape from that world .And I want to recover my creativity.

And for my creativity , most important things is not money.
Most important and necessary things for me is Friendship and Imagination.
In this way, the priority of money is very low in my mind now.

I am thinking only one thing like this.
“I should concentrate to think what I want to express. “
Even if it is very strange and crazy. I will be OK.

My aged  europe friend says ” Less is more”
I am feeling it is right recently.
Will I become miserable old man ? ,So what ?
Life is very short. We are going to die anyway.

 

Onion asked me often like this.
“But, don’t you need some money anyway? “

Yes,I need money. but most important things are not money.

“Don’t you need money for making video game like your Chulip? You need a lot !!”
Yes,I need money.I need help.

But most important things are not money.
There is treasure inside of my heart.There is treasure called friendship.

 My first step is not “collecting money”,is not  “thinking about  kick starter”.I want to discover the soul of Chulip in my heart again.

Yoshiro kimura
september/30/2013 

I am the one of game designer who is living in the island that earthquake happen a lot. I did make Onion Games last year, but I could not work for it for some reason.

 Finally I can start the activity of “Onion Games” recently.
I can answer  about this question now.

“What is Onion Games ?”

“Onion Games is tiny team for making indie game. ”

“We are working in Sinjuku 3choume near the Marunouchi Line. ”

I was making games for Game console.
For example, My works are Little king’s story, Chulip,moon,Rule of Rose … and so on. I was working as director or producer or writing story. or I was drawing simple story board sometime.

I have spend the time half of my life.
Fortunately my works have a color of myself a lot. so I love my own past work very much. It was really happy that I could have produced some my works in the big japanese video game industry.

I respect them very much.

But I think I start to walk another way from now on for my videogame.
I must make the new place, I must explore to new horizon which I do not know.

 

Please Let me drift like this.
and let me go to another dimension.
Even if it is very strange and crazy. I wii be feeling OK.

Yoshiro kimura
september/16/2013